Seeding time is almost here at the farm. This would be the season in which the husband switches from pastor into farmer and spends countless hours in the field. He actually enjoys driving the tractor because he gets plenty of time to think and commune with God.
I can tell the days where he has spent significant time thinking about me. He will come up with a creative date, leave me a love note, send me text messages and the like.
The first part of Provers 23:7 says, “As a man thinks in his heart, so is he.”
Over the last week I’ve had some interesting things happen in my ‘thinker’. My joy was getting stolen.
During our Bible study this week I was stunned by a revelation that came through Beth Moore’s teaching. That revelation floored me and, quite honestly, made me hopping mad!!
The next day I had to drive to the city and I thought and ruminated on that revelation for a good chunk of the two hour drive. I was even more mad. I mulled over what I now knew and tried to figure out what to do about it. Then I proceeded to go about my day and deal with my son’s issues, which are many, and that worry and angst invaded my thoughts, crowding aside the mad and filling me with anxiety over his ‘stuff’.
In the meantime I was supposed to me concentrating on giving my little girl a lovely day because it was her birthday and we had all sorts of things smashed in between her violin lesson, her brother’s counseling appointment and parent/teacher interviews. It was kind of hard to think straight!
Then Friday morning devotions came and it was all about having our mind stayed on Christ. I am also reading Dutch Sheet’s book The Pleasure of His Company. It too, spoke about just waiting on Jesus, thinking about Him and letting Him infiltrate our thinking, our thoughts and our day.
Again this morning, the devotional was in regards to taking things one day at a time and not worrying about tomorrow.
I had to do some adjusting in my thought patterns. I had to let go of my mad and trust God that He will work out and resolve that situation. I am thankful I have finally seen the truth but I need to let Him show me how that is going to look in the long run. I had to remember that while I am here to encourage and help my son, I am not responsible for the choices that he makes. If he chooses not to write his English essay, it is on his head, not mine.
If I choose to let my mind dwell on those things that I love; my God, my husband, my kids; and do so in a positive way, my love and affection for them grows.
I can tear down a relationship very quickly if I let fear, worry, anger or mistrust dwell in my mind.
I can build it up by forgiving quickly, thinking kindly and being thankful and gracious.
I build up my love for my Lord by simply letting my mind dwell on Him, thinking up love notes to send His way and anticipating the next time we get to be together.
Jeremiah 29:13 “You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart, and I will be found by you.”
** This post is part of a series called Loving Lent. You can begin and the very beginning by clicking HERE