Done talking

So I think I’m going to give up talking.

It just seems to be a lot of work and getting me nowhere at the moment.

Our life continues to go from crazy to crazy-ER!!

We started this little reno project a couple of months ago and it has taken over our entire house. I still don’t have a furnace that I can turn on and I really wish the plumber would just show up when he says he will.

Add in a kid who is getting into A-L-O-T of trouble lately (yes that is Bold, Italicized, Capitalized, Hyphenated and Underlined for a reason – imagine whatever you’d like and it’s quite possible that you’re close to the truth).


Maybe that means we get an extra allotment of grace, too, I think so because all this is waaaaaaaaaaaaaay more than I can handle.

We’re just over our half way mark in our plan of being in the city for a year and EVERYONE wants to know if we’re staying or going back. We’ve talked that one to death hence the desire to give up talking.

That is one question that I’d rather not talk about but everyone wants to KNOW!

Last time I thought I KNEW what we were doing – with the caveat of an angelic visitation – the angel apparently showed up and now I feel kinda dumb that I told some friends we knew what we were doing…because apparently that wasn’t it. We made that decision in the middle of the night and some major trauma – but it felt good at the time! At least I put the angel caveat in.

So we’re back to leaning hard in a direction but I’m thinking I don’t really want to say anything any more because I feel like I’m yanking my own chain. The hard part is we know that no matter what we do…somebody won’t like it. Here I am…just a-swinging’.

But here’s what we’re learning. What everyone else thinks really isn’t that important. It might feel important and even a little scary, but it isn’t. We have to wrestle this thing out with the Lord and in the end if we’re satisfied that He is satisfied then we are good to go. We will keep wrestling it out until we’re sure and then we’ll let y’all know.

In the meantime I am going to be content where I am. I am at home here in the city AND I am at home at the farm. I like both places. They are both good.

Maybe we’ll just do both.

Both could be good…

I’m done talking now.

About Lani

With six kids, a farm, a ministry and dreams poking out in every direction I need plenty of grace to keep all the balls in the air. The sweet thing is that when I drop them, that crazy grace of God is there telling me I'm still okay...and you are, too...welcome to this place of grace.


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