because love covers…

How do you take a nasty breakup filled with guilt, a girl filled with shame from her secret deeds and turn it into something good?

Enter God’s amazing grace…

God sent a young man into my life who had his own issues but who deeply knew the love of the Father. While I wasn’t sure at all about trusting men, I trusted God and He told me this would be okay. By this time my faith in my own ability to ‘pick’ a man was completely disintegrated.

On February 14th, 1992 at 30 000 ft that man asked me to marry him. That evening rather than being giddy and excited a feeling a dread filled me. My demons screamed at me that if he knew the truth about me he wouldn’t want to marry me, I really wasn’t the good girl that he thought I was.

The next morning in tears, I told him about my secret deeds. I didn’t tell him about the pornography because it is only recently that I connected it all together. When I told him was when the healing began…

because love covers…

He told me of some of his struggles, and I was able to show mercy and extend grace because he loved first.

A few years later when he fell prey to pornography’s trap there was nothing I could do but forgive and extend grace. I didn’t realize it then but now I can see that my own experiences with it offered me a perspective that most women don’t have and therefore allowed me to forgive what I had been forgiven for.

because love cover…

but it has only been in the last few years where the rest of the healing has come. Join me tomorrow for the conclusion of this series…

About Lani

With six kids, a farm, a ministry and dreams poking out in every direction I need plenty of grace to keep all the balls in the air. The sweet thing is that when I drop them, that crazy grace of God is there telling me I'm still okay...and you are, too...welcome to this place of grace.

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