Dear readers…all 2 of you!
Things have been super quiet here on the blog.
Because life has been extremely loud.
Crazy in fact.
Right in this moment, I am extremely thankful for the quiet I am currently experiencing. My job disappeared. Some things that were askew righted themselves. Some kids are growing up.
And we’ve been hanging out at the farm – where life is busy, but quiet. I kind of love it there.
I’ve needed quiet to combat the loud, crashing noise of struggle and surrender and truth.
I am in a stuck place.
I wish I wasn’t but I am.
I don’t remember ever feeling like this for so long.
Until about 3 years ago I was a passionate, purposeful person. I knew what I wanted and although I tended to self-sabotage, at least I knew.
Now I know nothing.
So I wait.
I wait for what God has for me. He has taken away the need to strive, create a name or a niche or a title. I want to give a best yes to His plans. Right now, that involves very little beyond my family. That may change but that’s where my focus is for now.
And I think that is okay.
This wilderness has possibilities, I can feel them beginning to grow and I am curious to see what comes up.
I have been challenged to give up my defended-ness, to allow people to get near me.
But I wonder who to let in.
Lots of questions and not so many answers.
That’s where I’ve been/am.
So where have you been? Are there possibilities?